Project 2022 — Day 5
Get the help
I reached out to a friend where I talked about how I was feeling guilty for reaching out to another friend for help. I got some clarity on how my past issues were working as a hindrance for my growth and I have to stop getting overwhelmed.
Truth will set me free
I confessed how I had been lagging behind and just not going ahead and completing my work. I confessed. And He was kind and asked me to begin again. I said sorry but I have to tell you. That helped.
Trust more
I don't trust people. Scratch that. I don't trust anyone and its very very hard for me to assume good intent. Yeah, past shit and fuckups have made me like this. I used to believe that only 10% of people have can be worth trusting and everyone else is out there to harm me. Needless to say that I was scared of sharing good or bad news with anyone and would hold my cards very close to my chest as if I was in some strategic stand-off. My friend told me to be more trusting, and that will make me more loving towards myself and others around me. This will make me happier and more at peace. More than 90% of people can be and should be trusted in life. They will not try to harm you. Many a time, when people disappoint us, it's due to a lack of skill in finishing work. Not a deliberate conscious betrayal of trust. So be more trusting.
Keep the message and shoot the messeanger
One person from my past was unhealthy for me but that person told me to continue with one good habit, come what may. The advice was good but the advisor was pathetic. I always felt yucky following the advice because I extrapolated my bad experience with that person to what The advice was. A friend told me to keep the message and shoot the messenger.
Parched soil will surely get nurtured
I had stopped my spiritual practices because I felt they had become mechanical and I was not doing them with the best intent. My friend reminded me to get back to mypractice, ASAP. Even if the process is mechanical, it will help. And after some time the intent will also spring forth. One had to persevere at it and continue the practice. Use a placeholder, if you find it hard. Do less but do not skip.
